Six Months Later…
I have been wanting to find my way back to this space for a few months now but it has been surprisingly difficult. Not because of a lack of time or a lack of interest or even a lack of inspiration…but because it started to intimidate me. It started to loom at me and make me second guess its very existence. Its blank slate looked like a hurdle rather than a canvas. Coming up with the right words, at the right time, to say the right thing seemed like an impossibly daunting task.
But here I am.
Today I looked at this space and realized it has been a whole six months since I left it. And here’s what happened in that six months: I stopped writing. I started to think I was not a good writer. I started to tell myself that I shouldn’t get back to it. I began to believe that my energy and talent and time was better spent on something else – anything else – besides writing. On my kids, on our new home, on my business and my marriage. On the new puppy we are bringing home this weekend and the holidays that loom ahead and the to-dos and must-dos and want-to-dos that were crowding my inbox and my mind on a daily basis.
Anywhere else but on me.
Well now is the time for me.
It’s not for the followers, the stats, the perfect Instagram moments or the extra income. It’s not for the comments or the likes or the shares. It’s not for the kids or the husband or the clients.
It’s for me.
For the writing and the blank canvas and the six months I spent questioning so much and coming back to the same answer over and over again:
Now is the time for me.
And I am happy to be back.
I hope you are finding some time for you right now as well. xx
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I’m so glad to see you are back and thank you for being so open and honest. We’ve all been there and know how hard it is to get back in the saddle. I bet you feel some relief now 🙂
YES! YES! YES! I have sooo missed your blog these past 6 months. You think your return is just for you – but forget that, Raluca. It’s for ME, too! Hooray!
Welcome back! You were missed.
Yes! Please come back even if just on occasion.
Welcome back!
I’m so glad you are back!! xoxo
I’m so happy you’re back! I continued to check in regularly in hopes you would be. You’re a gifted writer, but more importantly – you feel like a friend. Thanks for continuing to share a bit of your life. xo
Yay! Missed you!
Yes! Same. Totally with you.
So happy you’re back! Missed you! Totally understand how you were feeling…many of those same thoughts swirl around in my head when I stop blogging. I have to remind myself why I do it…for me. It’s a creative outlet for me and brings me joy. That’s all I need to focus on!
I am so glad to see your post today. I randomly thought of you this morning, wondering if you would find your way back to this wonderful blog! Really, it was this morning. Happy coincidence. Happy you are back!
Welcome back! Just shows that a break can be good and re-energizing. And we’re still here.
Welcome back! It made me so happy to see this email today. We are all so glad you are here being you.
Aw, thank you so much!
Glad to see you back at it.
Here here! Beautifully put. This is exactly why I write. And exactly why you should continue to write, or do whatever else it may be that fills you up. Enjoy the process (and ps. the internet missed you too!).
Thanks, Adrienne! So appreciate the kind words and support.
Welcome back!
Thanks, Allie! Appreciate you taking the time to stop in and read once in a while.
I am so glad that you are back! It is comforting to know that I’m not the only one bombarded with doubts and insecurities that prevent me from doing the things I love from time to time. Your voice was missed. I look forward to what you have to say in coming posts.
Thank you so much, Jennifer. Sometimes putting those doubts and insecurities out there helps ease them, I suppose 😉
I am so glad that you have decided to come back! I found your blog shortly after having my first child (now almost 2) and am now pregnant with my second. Your posts are so beautifully written and are great inspiration/comfort to a less experienced mother.
With number two on the way, you’re hardly “less experienced”, lady! Congrats on the new addition and thank you, thank you, thank you for reading. I so appreciate it. Sincerely.
so happy to see this!
Thanks, friend! xx
Yes. You.
Love this, glad you are back to you, whatever that ends up being for those of us out here 🙂
Aw, thanks Amanda! Appreciate the support – now and always!
Welcome back! You are a beautiful, heartfelt writer. I have also enjoyed your honesty, taste, interests, recipes and overall style. I am about to go back to work after bring at home for 6 1/2 years at home and this has given me inspiration to make sure I do find something for me! We want to hear what you have to say! Best, Erin 🙂
Erin – thanks SO much for the kind words! It was just what I needed to hear as I crawl out of this creative slump and I really hope you find the same inspiration for your next chapter! Good luck with going back! I am sure it will be great; I have several friends who have recently transitioned back into it and everyone is happy and excited for the future. Wishing you the same! xx
Your writing is beautiful, keep sharing your gift!
Yes Queen.
I’m late to realize you starting writing again. But I’m SO happy about it.
Oh I’m happy you are back!!! Looking forward to catching up on all your recent posts!
Thank you! So sweet of you to say!