Happy (?) Friday
This has been one rotten week.
It started out with my very first negative comment from a reader who wanted to see more “grit” on the blog. It seems my musings on positivity, happiness and the beach are not of interest to her. Which is fine, you can’t please everyone, especially online, but I would be lying if I said it didn’t leave me feeling a touch insecure.
But just a touch.
I feel like everyone around me was dealing with sad news this week. Health issues, marriage issues, work issues.
I had a tiring few days solo with my kids and got some less than amazing news on the work front and felt exhausted and burnt out and just couldn’t shake it.
I felt like my big dreams and hopes of last week were all out of reach this week.
I felt drained, mentally and physically.
And then I came across Natalie Norton. I found her blog via a shout-out on Bleubird‘s Instagram yesterday afternoon and quickly became immersed in her story. Natalie had a newborn baby boy in late 2009 who was diagnosed shortly thereafter with RSV and pertussis (whooping cough). It was the exact diagnosis my little Kai got only three days after his birth exactly one year later, in late 2010. Kai was on antibiotics at three days old, in the hospital at seven days old, and thankfully, back home and given the all-clear within weeks. Natalie’s little Gavin did not make it and passed away in January 2010…from the exact same thing my son had.
Natalie’s story stuck with me all night.
When I was frustrated by a not-so-encouraging meeting with some realtors. When my bank balance stared back at me from the Chase app with a little smirk. When my kids ran circles around me (literally) screaming at the top of their lungs.
I just kept thinking of Natalie. And Gavin. And the journey they went through. And the incredible outlook she had on the whole thing via her blog – finding solace and positivity in prayer and the comfort of virtual strangers. It took me right back to those days during Kai’s sickness when I wasn’t positive or enlightened or patient. I was mad and an emotional wreck and cursing a mile a minute and didn’t understand why this was happening to us.
I had felt drained, mentally and physically.
Then around 9pm last night, I got a Twitter message from Natalie (love the internet sometimes). She had seen a message I had left on Bleubird’s Instagram, sending her virtual best wishes and peace for Gavin and she wanted to reach out to say how happy she was “for my miracle.”
And suddenly my not-so-happy Friday took a turn.
*You can see more about Natalie’s story here and learn more about pertussis and the importance of vaccinations (particularly for adults that will be in contact with newborn babies – if you are pregnant, I urge you to please look into this) at Sounds of Pertussis.com.
**Image above via here**